=D i just LOVE the strength that the Lord can give us if we chose to take it. its literally unbelieveable! Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior has made this journey un-real. My co-workers are STUNNED that i dont smoke anymore, my family thinks that im stupid, and my classmates are just dumbstruck, this is so much fun to do this i wont ever smoke again. its good for me and its fun, what else could i ask more? lol. School has been more enjoyable as well, im not sitting on the edge of my seat just waiting for the bell to ring. and i dont have that nasty smoke smell (except the fact that my whole family smokes =D). i have found ALSO that my art abilities or my ablity to create has improved as well. this desicion has been one of the best ones ive ever made. im almost glad i started smoking in the first place! lol. (maybe?)
my Faith has even improved, i dont feel pulled down nearly as much and i feel like my walk with God has been so much easyer. i dont feel like i have to start off every prayer asking God for forgivness for my unhealthy habits. Better yet (honestly what could be better than that?) i feel closer to my mom in a werid way, because when i go outside to talk with her she knows its because im out there to talk with her not because i wanted a smoke also. its just amazing the ways God can work.
im not trying to say this has been easy, at all. in fact its hard but my faith and persavernce has made this a cake walk almost for me (contridicting much?). Like you know when you have to make a hard desicion, no matter what its a hard desicion right? but God is so alive and real for me that i can see right from wrong and i know how to decide for myself that "no i dont want to smoke" i have an "impulse" to smoke or to just light up once more but i have made the desicion not to because im doing so for God my Father, not myself.
ive taken up photography to swell up my time =D
God Bless!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
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